Before and After

I never thought of having a baby at this age as I feel that I'm not ready yet to be a mummy. I'm into my last semester for my degree course and I hope to find a good job after my graduation and go travelling as and when I like with my hubby without a care in the world. So Amadeus came at a time when I'm totally unprepared, during the time when I'm having my examinations...due to the pregnancy, I can't concentrate for my exams and need to take MC for most of my papers. Subsequently, I failed one of my paper as I didn't go to take the supplementary paper and thus left 6 modules to complete and I also had to defer my studies for 1 yr till next Jan....Everything went haywire and all my plans had to be halt for this pregnancy.

Throughout my pregnancy, I keep thinking how nice if this was just a dream and I'm not really pregnant as I don think I can handle being a mother. I would have graduated in June and probably now working and supporting myself and would have go for short trips now and then with my hubby. I was also afraid of the labour pain and the thought of going thru the labour for hours really scares me. I also cannot be actively involved in my new hse reno then due to my big tummy as my due date was near....

But everything went smoothly and the labour process was a breeze, tks to the epidural (even though the process of injecting the epidural was quite a painful one and I don want to go thru it again). The joy after giving birth to Amadeus was indescribeable and I never thought I will feel this way. Though it was tiring and frustrated sometimes to take care of him, but he never fails to make my day with his smile :) I feel so happy to have him and indeed all my sarcrifices are worth it.

Below are some pics of his sleeping positions when he was 1 mths plus: